Recovery Pt. 2

I’M STILL HERE!!! I’ve almost made it through a whole semester, and for the most part, life has been completely normal. I may go to the bathroom more than the average bear, but that doesn’t really bother me.

The biggest hurtle has been adjusting my diet. I’ve tried to eat as healthily as I can, but for some reason, my body doesn’t really like most fruits or vegetables. So, I end up eating a protein and carb heavy diet. It may not be the “ideal” diet, but it works for me. I’m also lactose intolerant now for some reason which is a major bummer for a kid from Wisconsin, but I make it work. Earth Balance does the job of butter, and I can at least convince myself that nutritional yeast satisfies my cheese cravings. Also, oat milk is delicious, and I would drink it instead of milk anyway.

With a pretty consistent diet and workout plan, my weight has pretty much leveled out at 160lbs. Still lighter than I would like, but amazing considering where I’m coming from.

The further I get from everything, the more I’m able to glean the perspective I’ve gained. Nothing really matters that much. I truly don’t sweat the small stuff anymore. I’ve stared death in the face, and after that, everything sort of falls into place. No matter what happens, I’m alive. I’m still here, and I get to experience so many things. There’s a recurring line in Peaky Blinders that after accepting death everything else is extra. I found it odd upon first viewing, but now I feel like I understand it. It’s not morbid, it’s liberating. It allows you to live whatever life you want to live.

As a reminder to myself to stop and take perspective on life, I finally got a tattoo. I never thought I’d be the kind to get one, but I finally experienced something I feel is tremendously important and permanent.